school, peculiarly surrealistic yet nostalgic.

passing through

after that disaster, it seems like everything is lost and changed.
since then, we keep pretending there was nothing crucial happened.
however for me, it was los angeles, or it was arizona.
which probably were the very last days, I used to possess.
after my hands left the world, it seems like, we are literally sinking,
going down deeper and deeper. slowly, but very surely.
that would be major reason explaining why I was so depressed these days.

Now, autumn is about to pass by.
and winter is coming, just like those years we used be familiar with.

last saturday, i totally was downhearted, with the fact
that we can't play and laugh, as we used to.
we are no more cynical to the world, criticize the world,
just very innocently, without knowing anything at all.
just like we always used to be in college.

but i know, that i cant take those days back anymore.
now, I am getting so powerfully involved with
this new environment, surroundings,  and people.
which stirs my emotions and makes me confused.
only thing i hope is these could be a trigger,
to find a very dim and vague path for my new life from now on.