You can never say if this is worth doing or not, all you can say is that you do it simply because you cannot help doing it. So just keep doing it and it will take you somewhere, somehow, it may take time, but it definitely will. I could not tell that to him because I was not enough confident back time. But now I want to tell him that really really badly. Throw away that little journal, it won't get criticized nor it won't move anyone, otherwise it possibly does.